Oh Boy...

Well today was quite interesting. I spent all day thinking up excuses to not go on this date...and when I was finally ready for my speil, he walks in the door. He was dressed in a polo and jeans, had his hair done, smelled like cologne...he sits next to me at the bar...and I feel sooo bad! I say "would you be mad if I didn't go to dinner with you tonight?" Wrong question, he lets out this huge sigh and rolls his eyes. He says "well I'll leave it up to you" and smacks his beer onto the bar. So I felt obligated to go...Plus, I DID agree to it in the first place. He takes me to Longhorn, on the way there I'm talking about nothing...and we get there and have dinner. The dinner was nice, we have things in common. He wants to move to Melbourne, FL and that's where I used to live. He has a biochemistry degree, I wanted to major in chem...He works out at 24 hour fitness, I used to. He drinks iced tea, so do I. He's never been married, no kids...has a decent job. Sounds good right??? Oh boy, if you only knew. We get back to Wallaby's and sit to have a drink. I was trying to think of excuses to leave, because by now all the regulars know that I went out with him. I ask him "So how old are you?" (I'm thinking about 40 or so) He says "A lot older than you think"...so I'm thinkin.. I say "well surely you're not 50, if you are you sure age well!" He says "barely 50." "Oh you mean, what, 51?" He says "no try the other end of the spectrum!" OMG...WHAT THE FUCK WAS I THINKING?! HE'S ALMOST 60 YEARS OLD! That's older than my parents! He's pushing Grandpa's age!

Well, I immediately found an excuse, "I have to go feed my cats", and darted for the back door. Wow, he wants to take me out again...so I told him I'd let him know. OMG!! What is wrong with me?! I swear he doesn't look that old!

Afterwards I went to Lisa's to watch American Idol and Six Feet Under. I just got home and now the kids are playing tag...Zoey is screaming at Sawyer while he's biting her...

Anyway, lesson learned. Follow your instincts. I should've just ditched him and went home right after work instead of waiting to tell him I didn't want to go, only to get the guilt trip into going after all.

A Little Behind!

Ok... A weekend recap for those who have missed me these last few days..

Saturday...My Mom called me to meet them for lunch at Cheddars about 12:30...I was still in bed. I love Cheddars, what a great place to eat. They give you so much for the money! Plus they have this sandwich call the Monte Cristo...wow...amazing! It's basically a ham, cheese, and turkey sandwich dipped in funnel cake batter, fried, and sprinkled with powdered sugar. AMAZING! It's a heart attack waiting to happen, but atleast I'll be smiling when I go down :) So Saturday I sat around and watched t.v. until I went early to work again. I was hungry and needed to eat before the big night! We had a band (The Boomerz) that night, and we're always busy when they play. Most of the night went well, but I had this table of white trash who paid for everything in cash everytime they ordered it. Even food. Not one time did they tip me...I was getting pissed because they were at about $75 and I hadn't gotten a penny. I pull my boss into his office and start to give him an earful about it. I ask him if he could go over there and ask if their service was ok, and he says "just because they're not tipping you doesn't mean we don't want their business. We're not going to hurt our business because you're not making anything off them." FUCK YOU. How fucking rude..atleast at EBar my boss would stick up for all us servers. I told my boss that I was going to stop serving them because I'm tired of working hard for others and getting nothing in return. His father (our owner) was in there at this time and he told me the same thing. These people are so greedy and only care about themselves...it's disgusting. I'm so tired of working for them. Needless to say, when the table left, they had spent about $150 and they left me $4.50. My boss felt so guilty that he apologized and handed me some money...I didn't want to accept it, but at the same time, he was an asshole about it...so I took it and thanked him. I didn't get out of there till 3am because the band fiddle-farted around for like and hour and a half...what a waste of a night!

Sunday...I get a call from Amanda saying she's sick and wants me to come into work and bartend for her. Since I haven't bartended there yet I thought it would be a nice opportunity for me to prove myself. So I crawl out of bed at 12:15 and go to work. I get there, Amanda leaves...doesn't tell me how to do much of anything...but I've bartended, I'm not an idiot. The t.v. system was a little tricky, but when I found college softball I was content. This guy Randy was in there watching t.v. and talking to me. He comes in a lot and plays poker (yes, he's one of those) anwyays, we're talking and blah blah blah, and as he's leaving he asks me out to dinner. I say sure and he quickly smiles and walks away saying he'll meet me there on Tues at 5:30pm. I didn't even have a chance to say it was a casual dinner, nothing romantic. So now I'm stuck in this situation that I don't want to be in, and I don't have his number and I don't want him to have mine...so I wait till tomorrow to shut him down. How crappy! But he's old...and I'm definately NOT attracted to him!

When I got home from work Lisa came over and we watched the first season of Six Feet Under. Great show. So far I'd say we're both addicted. While she was here we decided to clean...and clean...and clean. Wow...much needed! I need to hire her every week! My apartment looks like a brand new place! She found hiding places I've never even thought of! We had a great time and I'm so glad we're are friends again. Without her, I don't know where I'd be right now!

Today...I went to work...made some money...and came home. Shannon came over and we went shopping for some things. Afterward we went to Maloney's to eat dinner...came back to my place and watched a movie. She just left and now I'm here watching Family Guy! I just want to shout out to Tina and say: Thanks for the nice things you said about me. It brought tears to my eyes! :)

Only 2 more days till Wednesday!! :)

Good Stuff

Well...I didn't write yesterday...tsk tsk shame on me!! Not a whole lot happened anyway. I just went to Lisa's after work and hung out with her for a bit, then watched Sabastian while she took Patience to dance class. Took a small nap on her couch with Sab sitting on me and farting lol, and then came home and off to bed.

This morning Melissa and I went to some garage sales. She always finds the good stuff at these things so I thought I'd go with her. There weren't too many good ones, but it was also supposed to rain all day. I did find a new duffel bag for traveling (much needed), a shelf for the wall, a bacardi shirt I can wear to work, and a really pretty vase. It's light blue and turqious with a nice design on it. It was originally priced for $50 and I got it for $2 brand new!!! Sweet deal!

I had to work at 4 today...the last 3 weeks or so it's been really bad, but tonight Amanda and I got slammed. We both worked our asses off! Thank god, because I need to make some moolah!! So yeah...I just got home from work...thinking about when I'm going to head up to Charlie Hoopers again lol. Melissa called up there today to see if that guy was working, she was going to tell him to just call me because I can't stop talking about him! Thankfully he wasn't there! I don't think I'd ever go back if she said something to him. I'm such a wuss! I knew I'd regret not talking to him!

Anyway, I better go play with the kids. I haven't been home all day and they kinda missed me. Hasta luego!

Anything's Possible, Right?

I'm a day late writing this, but I'll write another later! Yesterday was a good day. I went to work and made some money. When I got home, Melissa came over and we went to visit a friend of hers in the hospital. That's where I found the Walk To Remember brochure. I think everyone should join me in that because it would be a lot of fun to have a large group walking together! Plus it's for a good cause and for the families that are having to go through the experience! It's better than spending money elsewhere! If you want to know more about it, call me and I'll give you the details...

After we visited her friend we went and had "lunch" at Fred P. Otts. I LOVE this place! Their food it great! I recommend everyone to try it sometime. Melissa and I go there a lot, it's a good hangout. She brought Bitsy over to see the kids, of course Sawyer wanted nothing to do with that and stayed on top of the refrigerator the whole time. But Zoey was following her around the apartment wanting to play! It was the cutest thing! I guess now I know which one will be ok living with a dog...

After Melissa left, Shannon came over and we were getting ready to go out. We decided to go to Charlie Hoopers which is outside of Waldo. On wednesday nights they have $2.50 import bottles. Shit, on tuesday nights they have $1 domestic drafts! So they have a huge list of imports, kinda like Old Chicago, so Shannon and I order a beer. Then I got this idea in my head...a game. I order a beer for her from now on, and she orders one for me. Not something we've had either, it had to be something we've never heard of and (obviously) from another country. The first round of the game she gets me Sam S(omething) Nut Brown Ale. It tasted like a dirty ball sack covered in maple syrup! SOOO gross! And of course the one I ordered for her was normal and tasted just fine. The second round she gets me Leffe Blonde. which I've had a blonde beer before and it's not bad, but this one tasted like mint beer. It was pretty horrible too. And, of course, the one I ordered for her was "normal"...I couldn't find a crappy one for her. I guess I could've gone with the Elephant Malt...but I thought I'd be a little easy on her! lol. Anyway, that was the game and it went on for about 6 beers. It was fun and we had a really good time with it! I can't wait to go back...but that's not the only reason I can't wait!

So there's this guy that works there named Don. SUPER hot! I couldn't keep my eyes off him! Even Shannon thought he was hot and we don't even have the same taste! Anyway, I couldn't stop looking at him...and I noticed he couldn't stop looking at me. I started smirking at him, he'd smile at me. When he got off work he sat at the end of the bar and smiled at me the whole time. I was sitting there talking to Shannon and I couldn't stop looking over her shoulder. He'd be staring and smiling everytime! When I'd walk to the bathroom he'd watch me, and when I'd come back I'd look at him and smile. He eventually moved more to the middle of the bar, where we were, and looked over at me again. I swear, there HAS to be a connection there. We were totally into each other, yet have never met! Anyway, needless to say, I'm a pussy and didn't man up and go talk to him. And clearly he's a pussy because he didn't man up and talk to me. Eventually we left, and I was so bummed! But Shannon made a good point, I didn't want to give him my number because I don't know if he's single. That would have been more embarassing than not doing anything at all! So maybe next week, I'm definately going, maybe I'll have the courage to talk to him. If I had to describe the perfect looking guy...this is him. God I hope this works! Anything's possible, right? :)

Great Minds Think Alike

Wow...today felt like the longest day EVER! Work was sooooo slow! I just got done reading Tina's blog for the day, and I'll tell you what, we are so much alike! I don't know whether it's because we were so close growing up, or that our parents raised us identical...but everytime I'm thinking of something she's onto the same thought. It's the weirdest thing! I love it though because it makes me feel that what I do/say is the right thing and that I'm not out of line when I need to make a statement. I read her blog and it reminds me of myself. It makes me happy :) I miss you Tina!

Maybe that's what I truely need...maybe I should attempt to move to NC to get the hell outta here. Like Lisa said, I should live for myself and make myself happy, and right now that's not what I'm doing. I need a change of atmosphere...a change of self. I have great friends up here and all, but I know that if I leave KS, the ones who are truely my friends will still call.

Well...what to say? All day I fought with Kim about our problems in our friendship...that got nowhere...but "it is what it is"...friendships are like "serious relationships". They are a 2-way street. A relationship doesn't work out when one person tries and the other sits back and relaxes. Neither does a friendship. I'm going to take Lisa's advice and start focusing on myself...make myself happy...because focusing on other people's problems is only a waste of time. Especially when they don't want to listen.

So I went to my parent's house tonight. Watched Lost and American Idol. I'll tell you what, I'd marry Lee Dewyze in a minute! He's sooooo hot! Maybe I should move to Chicago and try to run into him ;) As for Lost, 4 episodes left! I'm so glad that the finale is on a Sunday! I'll actually be able to watch it on time! My prediction is this: When they all get off the island, they end up in Sydney again. They all board the plane back to the USA and crash into the island again and it starts all over. If you think back when Jacob and "Lock" were on the beach, a plane flies overhead and they said something like "Here we go again. It's the same thing everytime." So I predict that, even if they get off the island, they will end up craching there again. As for the "alternate world"...don't have a clue!

Last thing I did today was download a bunch of music for my IPOD. I'm super excited!! I'm actually going to have an up-to-date IPOD! Yay!!!! Off to bed with the kids, nighty night!!

Tulips

So I started that Acai diet and it's going pretty well. I called to cancel my subscription today and they gave me two options: 1. I can mail back the pills by May 18th without being charged any extra 2. I can keep the pills and they will charge me 19.99 for each bottle. Hmm...This is supposed to be a 30 day trial...how come I have to mail them back and if I don't then I get charged? That's not a 30 day trial at all! This is how they get their money. They charge you for shipping, then when you cancel on them they either make you spend more money to ship them back or charge you for them. Stupidest thing I've ever heard. Guess I learned my lesson: never buy anything off the Internet. What a joke. I'll be mailing them back tomorrow.

Work was pretty slow...as it has been for a couple weeks now. Since the weather is getting nice people are enjoying the outdoors. I think it's been the weirdest April ever...not too much rain. That's a first really because normally we'd have hail storms and tornado warnings by now. Not that I'm asking for them but it's rather odd...

Some of my friends (no names mentioned) are really getting on my nerves these days. By reading this (if you are) then you might know that I'm talking about you...I just don't understand how someone can bitch about not having money, not being able to pay bills, can't do this or that, but can try to organize "outtings" with a group of people that are going to cost money. Money that needs to be saved, obviously, for more important things like clothes, food, and rent. That's not the only thing that bothers me here though...because when a friend calls or texts you asking to schedule your time around theirs, you should think that you could work out a time to do whatever is the plan. Just because I don't want to take off work for this activity doesn't mean you have to make me feel like it really doesn't matter to you if I come or not because you already invited a bunch of other people. Really? Maybe that's not the way she meant it, but it's definitely the way it came off. Basically, since I'm not going to plan my life around you, well, then it doesn't matter because other people will. That's a very selfish way to go about things...


Not only that, but another "friend" of mine decides she doesn't want to tell me things because she's afraid I'm going to tell my other friends and paint a horrible picture of her. We are girls, we all talk. There are things people don't talk about tho...I'm not saying I haven't crossed the line on some of those things, but most of what I say to people isn't really that important. So if you're going to be "best friends" with someone, you should trust them with things and talk about things. Isn't that what friends are for?

Ugh, I'm just so sick of the crap. Seriously!

Anyway, tonight I went over to Lisa's house and played t-ball and tag with her devil children. ;) Then of course I get roped in to helping her plant her flowers and new shrubs. I actually enjoyed it! It was so nice to try something new...because seriously, I've never done that before. I'm sure I'll be sore from digging but it was worth it. I learn something new everyday! Afterwards we watched a corny Lifetime movie and I came home to my cat-shit-smelling apartment. I should really clean the litter box now! Hasta manana!

Sunday Not So Fun Day

Woke up this morning...still had a sore throat. Went to lunch with Mom at Jalapenos...yum. Came home...took a nap on the couch. Woke up with a worse sore throat and an ear ache. Went to work. Just got home and ready for bed again. Hopefully next Sunday will be more fun! :)