2 Days In 1

I'm getting really lazy with this blog! I think I get too tied up in my Tiki Resort and Social City haha. Speaking of...

So yesterday was a little different than the days before. I was feeling a little lonely and needed a piece..lol...so I got one! Yay for me! The identity of this piece will remain unknown :) Last night Shannon and I went to Charlie Hooper's for my weekly stalking of Don...unfortunately he wasn't working :( I talked to the bartender (Julie) about him. He's single, around 30 years old, super hot :), but he's quitting because he got a job with the railroad. I guess he has 3 weeks left working up there so maybe I'll get to see him next week. Julie's going to tell him that someone is interested in him on Friday night, so hopefully he'll show up Wed.

Today seemed like a looong day. I worked from 10-5 and made..well...nothing really. I was so tired from last night that I came home and took a nap! When I got up I made chicken nuggets and buttered noodles. That's my poor person's diet! Now I'm debating if I want to watch "The Ugly Truth" or not...

Well Tina is going to be the only one who knows this person, but I've been talking to someone over FB the last week or so that I haven't seen since Baker. Now, when I was there I had a HUGE crush on him. His name is Lance Moore. Now, the problem is that I lost my virginity to his older (sluttier) brother freshman year...Lance never wanted to date me, I asked him out countless times and he would always say no. But now that we've been talking on FB he wants to meet up sometime. He even gave me his number! I look at his pictures now...not the Lance I knew...older (obviously), hairier, fatter, uglier really lol. But I always had a thing for him so I think I'm going to call him....What do you think? If you're reading this than you should give me some advice! I'm not sure what to do! And if I go meet him, what should we talk about? Should I ask him if he knows about me and his brother? I'm pretty sure he'd know, I think everyone does...I mean, it's Baker...but I just don't want it to be awkward...I'm open for suggestions!

That's about it really... the weather is nice, a bit windy...pretty warm...I still haven't turned on my ac so I'm sure my cats just love me right now. But there's tile in my apartment so they can lay on that! That's what Buddy did in Florida to stay cool! :) Well I'm all out of things to say...I shall write again tomorrow.

Oh Boy...

Well today was quite interesting. I spent all day thinking up excuses to not go on this date...and when I was finally ready for my speil, he walks in the door. He was dressed in a polo and jeans, had his hair done, smelled like cologne...he sits next to me at the bar...and I feel sooo bad! I say "would you be mad if I didn't go to dinner with you tonight?" Wrong question, he lets out this huge sigh and rolls his eyes. He says "well I'll leave it up to you" and smacks his beer onto the bar. So I felt obligated to go...Plus, I DID agree to it in the first place. He takes me to Longhorn, on the way there I'm talking about nothing...and we get there and have dinner. The dinner was nice, we have things in common. He wants to move to Melbourne, FL and that's where I used to live. He has a biochemistry degree, I wanted to major in chem...He works out at 24 hour fitness, I used to. He drinks iced tea, so do I. He's never been married, no kids...has a decent job. Sounds good right??? Oh boy, if you only knew. We get back to Wallaby's and sit to have a drink. I was trying to think of excuses to leave, because by now all the regulars know that I went out with him. I ask him "So how old are you?" (I'm thinking about 40 or so) He says "A lot older than you think"...so I'm thinkin.. I say "well surely you're not 50, if you are you sure age well!" He says "barely 50." "Oh you mean, what, 51?" He says "no try the other end of the spectrum!" OMG...WHAT THE FUCK WAS I THINKING?! HE'S ALMOST 60 YEARS OLD! That's older than my parents! He's pushing Grandpa's age!

Well, I immediately found an excuse, "I have to go feed my cats", and darted for the back door. Wow, he wants to take me out again...so I told him I'd let him know. OMG!! What is wrong with me?! I swear he doesn't look that old!

Afterwards I went to Lisa's to watch American Idol and Six Feet Under. I just got home and now the kids are playing tag...Zoey is screaming at Sawyer while he's biting her...

Anyway, lesson learned. Follow your instincts. I should've just ditched him and went home right after work instead of waiting to tell him I didn't want to go, only to get the guilt trip into going after all.

A Little Behind!

Ok... A weekend recap for those who have missed me these last few days..

Saturday...My Mom called me to meet them for lunch at Cheddars about 12:30...I was still in bed. I love Cheddars, what a great place to eat. They give you so much for the money! Plus they have this sandwich call the Monte Cristo...wow...amazing! It's basically a ham, cheese, and turkey sandwich dipped in funnel cake batter, fried, and sprinkled with powdered sugar. AMAZING! It's a heart attack waiting to happen, but atleast I'll be smiling when I go down :) So Saturday I sat around and watched t.v. until I went early to work again. I was hungry and needed to eat before the big night! We had a band (The Boomerz) that night, and we're always busy when they play. Most of the night went well, but I had this table of white trash who paid for everything in cash everytime they ordered it. Even food. Not one time did they tip me...I was getting pissed because they were at about $75 and I hadn't gotten a penny. I pull my boss into his office and start to give him an earful about it. I ask him if he could go over there and ask if their service was ok, and he says "just because they're not tipping you doesn't mean we don't want their business. We're not going to hurt our business because you're not making anything off them." FUCK YOU. How fucking rude..atleast at EBar my boss would stick up for all us servers. I told my boss that I was going to stop serving them because I'm tired of working hard for others and getting nothing in return. His father (our owner) was in there at this time and he told me the same thing. These people are so greedy and only care about themselves...it's disgusting. I'm so tired of working for them. Needless to say, when the table left, they had spent about $150 and they left me $4.50. My boss felt so guilty that he apologized and handed me some money...I didn't want to accept it, but at the same time, he was an asshole about it...so I took it and thanked him. I didn't get out of there till 3am because the band fiddle-farted around for like and hour and a half...what a waste of a night!

Sunday...I get a call from Amanda saying she's sick and wants me to come into work and bartend for her. Since I haven't bartended there yet I thought it would be a nice opportunity for me to prove myself. So I crawl out of bed at 12:15 and go to work. I get there, Amanda leaves...doesn't tell me how to do much of anything...but I've bartended, I'm not an idiot. The t.v. system was a little tricky, but when I found college softball I was content. This guy Randy was in there watching t.v. and talking to me. He comes in a lot and plays poker (yes, he's one of those) anwyays, we're talking and blah blah blah, and as he's leaving he asks me out to dinner. I say sure and he quickly smiles and walks away saying he'll meet me there on Tues at 5:30pm. I didn't even have a chance to say it was a casual dinner, nothing romantic. So now I'm stuck in this situation that I don't want to be in, and I don't have his number and I don't want him to have mine...so I wait till tomorrow to shut him down. How crappy! But he's old...and I'm definately NOT attracted to him!

When I got home from work Lisa came over and we watched the first season of Six Feet Under. Great show. So far I'd say we're both addicted. While she was here we decided to clean...and clean...and clean. Wow...much needed! I need to hire her every week! My apartment looks like a brand new place! She found hiding places I've never even thought of! We had a great time and I'm so glad we're are friends again. Without her, I don't know where I'd be right now!

Today...I went to work...made some money...and came home. Shannon came over and we went shopping for some things. Afterward we went to Maloney's to eat dinner...came back to my place and watched a movie. She just left and now I'm here watching Family Guy! I just want to shout out to Tina and say: Thanks for the nice things you said about me. It brought tears to my eyes! :)

Only 2 more days till Wednesday!! :)

Good Stuff

Well...I didn't write yesterday...tsk tsk shame on me!! Not a whole lot happened anyway. I just went to Lisa's after work and hung out with her for a bit, then watched Sabastian while she took Patience to dance class. Took a small nap on her couch with Sab sitting on me and farting lol, and then came home and off to bed.

This morning Melissa and I went to some garage sales. She always finds the good stuff at these things so I thought I'd go with her. There weren't too many good ones, but it was also supposed to rain all day. I did find a new duffel bag for traveling (much needed), a shelf for the wall, a bacardi shirt I can wear to work, and a really pretty vase. It's light blue and turqious with a nice design on it. It was originally priced for $50 and I got it for $2 brand new!!! Sweet deal!

I had to work at 4 today...the last 3 weeks or so it's been really bad, but tonight Amanda and I got slammed. We both worked our asses off! Thank god, because I need to make some moolah!! So yeah...I just got home from work...thinking about when I'm going to head up to Charlie Hoopers again lol. Melissa called up there today to see if that guy was working, she was going to tell him to just call me because I can't stop talking about him! Thankfully he wasn't there! I don't think I'd ever go back if she said something to him. I'm such a wuss! I knew I'd regret not talking to him!

Anyway, I better go play with the kids. I haven't been home all day and they kinda missed me. Hasta luego!

Anything's Possible, Right?

I'm a day late writing this, but I'll write another later! Yesterday was a good day. I went to work and made some money. When I got home, Melissa came over and we went to visit a friend of hers in the hospital. That's where I found the Walk To Remember brochure. I think everyone should join me in that because it would be a lot of fun to have a large group walking together! Plus it's for a good cause and for the families that are having to go through the experience! It's better than spending money elsewhere! If you want to know more about it, call me and I'll give you the details...

After we visited her friend we went and had "lunch" at Fred P. Otts. I LOVE this place! Their food it great! I recommend everyone to try it sometime. Melissa and I go there a lot, it's a good hangout. She brought Bitsy over to see the kids, of course Sawyer wanted nothing to do with that and stayed on top of the refrigerator the whole time. But Zoey was following her around the apartment wanting to play! It was the cutest thing! I guess now I know which one will be ok living with a dog...

After Melissa left, Shannon came over and we were getting ready to go out. We decided to go to Charlie Hoopers which is outside of Waldo. On wednesday nights they have $2.50 import bottles. Shit, on tuesday nights they have $1 domestic drafts! So they have a huge list of imports, kinda like Old Chicago, so Shannon and I order a beer. Then I got this idea in my head...a game. I order a beer for her from now on, and she orders one for me. Not something we've had either, it had to be something we've never heard of and (obviously) from another country. The first round of the game she gets me Sam S(omething) Nut Brown Ale. It tasted like a dirty ball sack covered in maple syrup! SOOO gross! And of course the one I ordered for her was normal and tasted just fine. The second round she gets me Leffe Blonde. which I've had a blonde beer before and it's not bad, but this one tasted like mint beer. It was pretty horrible too. And, of course, the one I ordered for her was "normal"...I couldn't find a crappy one for her. I guess I could've gone with the Elephant Malt...but I thought I'd be a little easy on her! lol. Anyway, that was the game and it went on for about 6 beers. It was fun and we had a really good time with it! I can't wait to go back...but that's not the only reason I can't wait!

So there's this guy that works there named Don. SUPER hot! I couldn't keep my eyes off him! Even Shannon thought he was hot and we don't even have the same taste! Anyway, I couldn't stop looking at him...and I noticed he couldn't stop looking at me. I started smirking at him, he'd smile at me. When he got off work he sat at the end of the bar and smiled at me the whole time. I was sitting there talking to Shannon and I couldn't stop looking over her shoulder. He'd be staring and smiling everytime! When I'd walk to the bathroom he'd watch me, and when I'd come back I'd look at him and smile. He eventually moved more to the middle of the bar, where we were, and looked over at me again. I swear, there HAS to be a connection there. We were totally into each other, yet have never met! Anyway, needless to say, I'm a pussy and didn't man up and go talk to him. And clearly he's a pussy because he didn't man up and talk to me. Eventually we left, and I was so bummed! But Shannon made a good point, I didn't want to give him my number because I don't know if he's single. That would have been more embarassing than not doing anything at all! So maybe next week, I'm definately going, maybe I'll have the courage to talk to him. If I had to describe the perfect looking guy...this is him. God I hope this works! Anything's possible, right? :)

Great Minds Think Alike

Wow...today felt like the longest day EVER! Work was sooooo slow! I just got done reading Tina's blog for the day, and I'll tell you what, we are so much alike! I don't know whether it's because we were so close growing up, or that our parents raised us identical...but everytime I'm thinking of something she's onto the same thought. It's the weirdest thing! I love it though because it makes me feel that what I do/say is the right thing and that I'm not out of line when I need to make a statement. I read her blog and it reminds me of myself. It makes me happy :) I miss you Tina!

Maybe that's what I truely need...maybe I should attempt to move to NC to get the hell outta here. Like Lisa said, I should live for myself and make myself happy, and right now that's not what I'm doing. I need a change of atmosphere...a change of self. I have great friends up here and all, but I know that if I leave KS, the ones who are truely my friends will still call.

Well...what to say? All day I fought with Kim about our problems in our friendship...that got nowhere...but "it is what it is"...friendships are like "serious relationships". They are a 2-way street. A relationship doesn't work out when one person tries and the other sits back and relaxes. Neither does a friendship. I'm going to take Lisa's advice and start focusing on myself...make myself happy...because focusing on other people's problems is only a waste of time. Especially when they don't want to listen.

So I went to my parent's house tonight. Watched Lost and American Idol. I'll tell you what, I'd marry Lee Dewyze in a minute! He's sooooo hot! Maybe I should move to Chicago and try to run into him ;) As for Lost, 4 episodes left! I'm so glad that the finale is on a Sunday! I'll actually be able to watch it on time! My prediction is this: When they all get off the island, they end up in Sydney again. They all board the plane back to the USA and crash into the island again and it starts all over. If you think back when Jacob and "Lock" were on the beach, a plane flies overhead and they said something like "Here we go again. It's the same thing everytime." So I predict that, even if they get off the island, they will end up craching there again. As for the "alternate world"...don't have a clue!

Last thing I did today was download a bunch of music for my IPOD. I'm super excited!! I'm actually going to have an up-to-date IPOD! Yay!!!! Off to bed with the kids, nighty night!!

Tulips

So I started that Acai diet and it's going pretty well. I called to cancel my subscription today and they gave me two options: 1. I can mail back the pills by May 18th without being charged any extra 2. I can keep the pills and they will charge me 19.99 for each bottle. Hmm...This is supposed to be a 30 day trial...how come I have to mail them back and if I don't then I get charged? That's not a 30 day trial at all! This is how they get their money. They charge you for shipping, then when you cancel on them they either make you spend more money to ship them back or charge you for them. Stupidest thing I've ever heard. Guess I learned my lesson: never buy anything off the Internet. What a joke. I'll be mailing them back tomorrow.

Work was pretty slow...as it has been for a couple weeks now. Since the weather is getting nice people are enjoying the outdoors. I think it's been the weirdest April ever...not too much rain. That's a first really because normally we'd have hail storms and tornado warnings by now. Not that I'm asking for them but it's rather odd...

Some of my friends (no names mentioned) are really getting on my nerves these days. By reading this (if you are) then you might know that I'm talking about you...I just don't understand how someone can bitch about not having money, not being able to pay bills, can't do this or that, but can try to organize "outtings" with a group of people that are going to cost money. Money that needs to be saved, obviously, for more important things like clothes, food, and rent. That's not the only thing that bothers me here though...because when a friend calls or texts you asking to schedule your time around theirs, you should think that you could work out a time to do whatever is the plan. Just because I don't want to take off work for this activity doesn't mean you have to make me feel like it really doesn't matter to you if I come or not because you already invited a bunch of other people. Really? Maybe that's not the way she meant it, but it's definitely the way it came off. Basically, since I'm not going to plan my life around you, well, then it doesn't matter because other people will. That's a very selfish way to go about things...


Not only that, but another "friend" of mine decides she doesn't want to tell me things because she's afraid I'm going to tell my other friends and paint a horrible picture of her. We are girls, we all talk. There are things people don't talk about tho...I'm not saying I haven't crossed the line on some of those things, but most of what I say to people isn't really that important. So if you're going to be "best friends" with someone, you should trust them with things and talk about things. Isn't that what friends are for?

Ugh, I'm just so sick of the crap. Seriously!

Anyway, tonight I went over to Lisa's house and played t-ball and tag with her devil children. ;) Then of course I get roped in to helping her plant her flowers and new shrubs. I actually enjoyed it! It was so nice to try something new...because seriously, I've never done that before. I'm sure I'll be sore from digging but it was worth it. I learn something new everyday! Afterwards we watched a corny Lifetime movie and I came home to my cat-shit-smelling apartment. I should really clean the litter box now! Hasta manana!

Sunday Not So Fun Day

Woke up this morning...still had a sore throat. Went to lunch with Mom at Jalapenos...yum. Came home...took a nap on the couch. Woke up with a worse sore throat and an ear ache. Went to work. Just got home and ready for bed again. Hopefully next Sunday will be more fun! :)

The Trial Begins...

Today was a very productive day. I forgot I had plans with Bria today, so when she called me I thought..."oh shit". I was going to go to the park with Kim and them but Bria and I made plans last week...and I'm glad because I had some crazy experiences!!

So we're sitting at Bria's house deciding what to do...We were thinking about going to see Hot Tub Time Machine but the movie didn't start until 5:40 and it was only 3. So I was telling her about my blogs and how I'd like to find someone to date but I don't really have any interests, and that's when I mentioned the River Market and that other stuff (If you've been keeping up you will know what I'm talking about) We were thinking about hitting up World's Of Fun, but decided that's a little too expensive and today was opening day...prob would've been pretty busy. So we drove downtown to the River Market and shopped around. I have never been down there, didn't quite know what to expect, but it was really awesome! There was all sorts of stuff and it was CHEAP! Kim if you're reading this, I got a bag of pumpkin seeds for 80 cents! What a bargain! Most of the shops were already closed because it was pretty late in the afternoon, but we walked around and bought some stuff here and there. I bought freshly made pita bread...omg...YUM! It's great!

There's a giant Asian Market down there across from River Market and Bria really wanted to go in there. She's kinda weird like that and not really afraid of anything new...we walked in an immediately started holding our breath! It smelt like raw fish! Luckily my nose is all fucked up so I really couldn't smell it all that bad...but boy could I taste it when I breathed in! So all the labels were in Vietnemese...or something like that, so I really had no idea what anything was. Bria was picking stuff up here and there and trying to explain it to me. On the side of the Market there is the "chop shop" where they have live fish, crabs, and crawdads that you can buy. There's also a guy behind the counter with a huge knife chopping away at fish! Pretty neat. They had the weirdest stuff tho...like chicken's feet (which still had the toenails), pig's blood, duck feet, the whole shin and foot of a cow, and all kinds of other random stuff. I have no idea what size of pot you would cook a cow foot in, or for what purpose, but whatever! Bria ended up buying some stuff and away we went!

We wanted to go to Whole Foods to buy meat for our dinner we were going to make, so I told her to go to Westport because there's a Whole Foods store down there. So we're driving through downtown KC trying to get to Westport...when we're about a block away I said "Oh wait, it's World Market not Whole Foods. That's the same thing though right?" Bria started laughing...I'm not one who shops at these places!! I had no clue! We ended up stopping at World Market just so we could look around. I had no idea it was like Pier 1. I loved it! They had some pretty awesome stuff there. I loved their dishes too! So when we were done there we drove to Whole Foods and got some groceries.

At Bria's house we decided to start cooking dinner. We made sweet potato chips from the sweet potatoes we bought at the River Market. Italian sausage with cheese on pita bread (sandwiches) and something else...I forgot what it's called! It tasted just like rice but it was little beads of different colors...I think it's an Asian dish...damn it! I can't remember! Anyway, dinner was awesome!

So I experienced some new things today and learned how to cook a few new things as well. I'd say it was a very productive day!

So the trial...I'm trying out that Acai Optimum diet that everyone is talking about. Got my pills in the mail today. The colon cleanse sounds a little scary. I'm going to start the Acai tomorrow but I just popped a cleanser about 20 mins ago. I'm a little scared what might happen! lol! But hey, I'll be home all night and probably going to hit the sack early...so it's all going to be ok! No one has to hear it but the kids! :)

This is my Friday

Hello again everyone! I see most of you got my message and MOST of you figured out how to make an account...not that difficult...anyways...I know I'm a day late, but I didn't get home until 7am so technically I wasn't home all day yesterday...but yet I was.

Like always, my day starts at 9:30am with Sawyer chewing on plastic in my ear. I kick him, he runs, and then comes back 10 sec later biting my toes to get me out of bed. At the same time, Zoey is standing on my chest meowing at me to wake up. I swear these cats plan it everyday. They are such a pain in my ass!

So I'm up at 9:30...thinking "Wow, I don't work until 4 I have a whole day to do stuff!" So I sat on my couch thinking about what I wanted to do...I surfed the internet, checked my mail, smoked a cig, came back inside, read the paper, looked for medication for a sore throat...then decided I felt like I was coming down with a cold so at 12 I laid down for a nap. Woke up at about 1:30ish...thought about going to Johnny's to pick up a paycheck...(hold on, got to beat Sawyer's ass for a sec)

Ok...where was I?...O yes, got in the shower at 2:30 and went to work EARLY because I was so bored. Pretty pathetic huh?

So I'm at work...we're dead...and I get conned into closing. But it's ok because I need the money. So I have the poker players. A brief background on them: they stink, they don't buy anything, they shake their water glasses at me for refills, they have no respect, they help themselves to the server station,...they think they own the place since they've been playing poker there so long and so often. I had 2 people order food...wow...there were about 18 poker players...they are such a waste of time I tell you! Back in the day we actually made money from them, but now they are so cheap that they don't want to spend anything! So they don't even play for money, they play for points and the person with the most points at the end of the "season" goes to a tournament in KC and the winner of that goes to Vegas and is on the World Poker Tour. It's so funny because you can see the glint of fame in these people's eyes when they sit at their poker table. They just want one taste of the spotlight in Vegas.

About 12:30 I'm done with my tables and sit at the bar to have a beer. This girl Amber walks in, she used to work there, and sits next to me and we start talking. Somehow we got on the topic of old boyfriends and how they ruined our lives....and we all know who that one was with me right? So I tell her the quick version of Ryan conning me into moving home from Florida only to find out he was with someone and a week later stops talking to me. She actually had a similar story. So we man bashed for awhile...then we got into bashing about bad tippers...and then it was last call. I'd only had 3 beers. So we decide to go to Ugly's because she was a decent chick and we had a lot in common. We get to Ugly's and she see's some of her friends. When it's time to leave, she wants to go to an after party. I told her I'd go if we dropped my car off at my place (I'm not leaving it in Ugly Joe's parking lot). Dropped my car off and away we went...to Westport...at 4am...yeah...I've been pretty sick all day with a horrible sore throat and I wasn't up for Westport at 4am. We get to this guy's apartment...WOW

THE.MOST.DISGUSTING.PERSON.I HAVE EVER MET! As soon as you walked in it smelt like a giant fart. But it was a stale fart...not a fresh one...musty and disgusting. The place is a nightmare...we head straight to the bathroom...shut the door...and I start gagging. The sink is FULL of curly red pubes...no water...the bathtub had a rusty orange ring around the entire tub and probably hadn't been cleaned in years...also hair on the side of the tub...lift the toilet seat...looks just like the tub...FUCKING DISGUSTING. While Amber is laughing about it I'm gagging and holding my breath in the corner. We walk to the kitchen...omg the smell in there was indescribable...I don't know what died in there, but whatever it was, he had not a clue. There were moldy dishes around the sink and empty beer cans filling the kitchen. The guy himself was gross too mind you...His hair was to his shoulders and thinner than my eyebrows...acne...the most unattractive person I've ever seen...and there's this girl sitting on the couch. She's cute, nice, good personality...and it's his girlfriend! I couldn't believe it...how in the hell do you date a guy like that? How does she shower there? How does she sleep there? How does she look at him? GROSS! And she's cute too! How is it that he has a girlfriend and I can't even score a one night stand?!

Anyways, this is getting long. We stay there till 6...the sun's coming up on the way home, and we decide to stop at Denny's. Yum. I got home about 7:15 this morning and went to bed right away. Woke up today wih a horrible sore throat...

So that was my Friday...the highlight of my day? Realizing that even the most disgusting people get ass more than I do...AHH!!

Stereotypes exist for a reason...

I know this blog is going to be very controversial, sound very "racist", and make me sound like a complete Johnson County bitch, but this is my blog, and if you don't like it, stop reading it...

I have worked in many restaurants in my time, and the one I made the worst tips at was Elephant Bar. The atmosphere is great, the food is amazing, and the people I worked with were awesome....but the clientele were...well...not to par. The thing is, the marketing department targeted people from KC,MO because this was the largest population of people who dined at Elephant Bar. So these people would drive 30 miles to eat at EBar in order to save $3. Not only would they save $3, but then they would run the servers to death, complain about everything, get upset when charged for drinks, and let their kids run around freely like at a jungle gym. On top of all of that, they wouldn't tip but 5%...now I'm not saying this is classic for all, but it seems to be a trend...so when gratuity is added on, they complain to management and threaten never to come back. As servers, we get the "talk" about adding gratuity to all tables with large parties... I'm sorry, I'm not racist...I love all people, my friends are all colors from black, to tan, to white, to pink...

Anyways, so I now work for Wallaby's, a bar in which our population stems from Lenexa. But today, it seemed a little out of character than what we are used to. A 50cent tip is NOT ok when your bill is $6.50. Even more so, getting NOTHING for a $15 tab is also NOT ok. These people who treat their servers with this much disrespect should not be catered to. We servers work way too hard and put up with way too much to earn nothing from it. I'm sick of it! Like I said, this doesn't always happen. And it's not a certain race...it's a certain type of person. Someone who doesn't appreciate the hard work others give in order for THEIR satisfaction. I may be a server, but I'm still a person who needs to make a living..and 50cents is not going to get me there. These people should not be dining out if they don't have the money.

If this is the way they treat people who cater to them, how do they treat everyone else? Do they treat their family with disrespect? Do they treat their friends with disrespect? I doubt it...I'm a SERVER, not a SERVANT.

I'm so sick of serving, being in the restaurant industry sucks. I will be 27 years old this year and I still don't have a 401K. I have no money in the bank, I have no health insurance, I have no benefits. If I were to fall down the stairs tomorrow morning and bust my knee, I'd be fucked. I wouldn't be able to work, wouldn't be able to pay medical bills, and would eventually be evicted from my apartment because I wouldn't be making any money to pay my bills.

Enough about that...I watched American Idol tonight...predictable...Watched LOST...unpredictable. Sawyer ate my cookies that Lisa baked for me...and now I'm watching South Park. Did you know Chef is Cartman's Dad?! Ha ha

Taxes, Bank, Work...

I'd like to think that I was so busy that I didn't have time for anything else, but that seems to be on the contrary. I have all this time on my hands to get things done, meet new people, workout, enjoy the sun, etc...but all I ever do is sit at home on the couch talking to my cats or watching Family Guy.

My goals for today were: mail off my taxes-check...go to the bank-check...make money at work-semicheck...come home and go running...clean my room...maybe assemble a weight-loss plan...possible run to the grocery store...

I feel like I have no hobbies, that I have no way of meeting anyone to share my life with because I don't know what I like or where I want to be. I have my friends, and they're great, but they have lives of their own and are out doing things all the time. While I'm sitting here typing at this moment...Kim is getting ready to go out, Lisa is cooking dinner with her kids, Shannon is assembling a garage sale, Melissa is watching her boyfriend's softball game, and Tina...well sorry Tina, I don't quite know what you're doing right now lol. But you get the point. Everyone seems to have something to do while I sit on my ass complaining about it.

I'm attending a mini-conference on Saturday morning on how to turn your life around. How to see things in the positive light and change the way you think and feel everyday. Is this really going to help me at this point? Or am I just going to waste my time?

Alot of this is because I don't have any money...which is a shallow excuse to fall back on...but it's true. I make enough money each month to pay my bills...and possibly go out to eat once or twice a week. I don't have cable, and the only thing keeping me from going insane right now is the free internet I steal everyday. I read these postings on Facebook that make me so envious...so why can't I do that?! Why can't I go down to the Riverwalk or World's of Fun? Why can't I eat out on the Plaza or go the comedy club? Why why why?! MONEY! It makes the world go round, and if you don't have it, you're fucked. And that's where I am, fucked.

I know this sounds depressing and all, but this is the way I'm feeling at this very moment. It's good to vent my frustrations out on the computer once and awhile. I just try to think back to when I lived in Florida...I would come home from work, go to the gym, have dinner with a friend, and hang out at the beach. Everyday was beautiful and full of stuff to do...maybe that's my answer...maybe I need to get the hell outta Dodge!