I'd like to think that I was so busy that I didn't have time for anything else, but that seems to be on the contrary. I have all this time on my hands to get things done, meet new people, workout, enjoy the sun, etc...but all I ever do is sit at home on the couch talking to my cats or watching Family Guy.
My goals for today were: mail off my taxes-check...go to the bank-check...make money at work-semicheck...come home and go running...clean my room...maybe assemble a weight-loss plan...possible run to the grocery store...
I feel like I have no hobbies, that I have no way of meeting anyone to share my life with because I don't know what I like or where I want to be. I have my friends, and they're great, but they have lives of their own and are out doing things all the time. While I'm sitting here typing at this moment...Kim is getting ready to go out, Lisa is cooking dinner with her kids, Shannon is assembling a garage sale, Melissa is watching her boyfriend's softball game, and Tina...well sorry Tina, I don't quite know what you're doing right now lol. But you get the point. Everyone seems to have something to do while I sit on my ass complaining about it.
I'm attending a mini-conference on Saturday morning on how to turn your life around. How to see things in the positive light and change the way you think and feel everyday. Is this really going to help me at this point? Or am I just going to waste my time?
Alot of this is because I don't have any money...which is a shallow excuse to fall back on...but it's true. I make enough money each month to pay my bills...and possibly go out to eat once or twice a week. I don't have cable, and the only thing keeping me from going insane right now is the free internet I steal everyday. I read these postings on Facebook that make me so envious...so why can't I do that?! Why can't I go down to the Riverwalk or World's of Fun? Why can't I eat out on the Plaza or go the comedy club? Why why why?! MONEY! It makes the world go round, and if you don't have it, you're fucked. And that's where I am, fucked.
I know this sounds depressing and all, but this is the way I'm feeling at this very moment. It's good to vent my frustrations out on the computer once and awhile. I just try to think back to when I lived in Florida...I would come home from work, go to the gym, have dinner with a friend, and hang out at the beach. Everyday was beautiful and full of stuff to do...maybe that's my answer...maybe I need to get the hell outta Dodge!
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You know Katie - you can do many of those things that you want to do.... there are ways of getting around it. For instance; you could pack yourself a nice healty lunch and invite a friend for a picnic infront of the Nelson Atkins Art Museum. That is free :)! You say you don't know how to cook - well, maybe one evening a week you could have one of your friends come over and the two of you can plan out a meal and cook it while drinking lots of Arbor Mist. Or the comedy club is always giving out free tickets to shows - find out how to get those free tickets and then call me and invite me to go w/ you! You don't need cable because it will only incourage you to sit around on your ass when there are soooo many other cool things to do and fun people to meet (which is not gonna happen at home, sitting on your ass watching cable). Summers comming - we can sit out by the pool many days and get really tan! You can even try to set up a girls weekend camping trip! It cheap and lots of fun! There are soooo many possibilities of fun things to do. Good luck Kat!
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